Life before I really ate manna...

I may need to ask you to "please forgive me"...

I may have come in the disguise of a fixer; I am really only a follower

I may have interrupted God by talking too much from my own initiative

I have lived on the wide road - following distractions, choosing pain killers, listening to little gods, rushing when I should have been waiting, decorating my kingdom instead of living as a lamp stand for His, choosing cheap fig leaves instead of trusting God and choosing naked

I may have tried to play God and establish your well-being

I may have asked you to establish my well-being

I may not have given you the honor and submission your position in God's Kingdom requires of me

I may have judged you; confused - and thinking you may be a step on the ladder of my invisible hierarchy

I may have let you think I was a step on the ladder of your invisible hierarchy; my sin may have tempted you to judge me

I may have reinforced the lie for you that "it is not O.K. that everything is not O.K"

I may not have asked you for strength or wisdom when I really needed it, or I may have asked you for comfort when I really needed strength

I am humbled that this offer comes to you from a place of strength instead of weakness.  This strength is because I have learned to go to God for healing instead of lesser sources for lesser things.  I only want to connect in relationship with you in places of strength- or in pursuit of strength; otherwise, one of us is acting as an enabler.  Jesus died to give us access to God's strength.   Thank you God for teaching me about relationship. The Truth is... it is not about me, it is not about here, it is not about now.  Thank you Father that the Truth really does set me free...free indeed.